In 1994, I sent HRH Princess Diana of Wales, a copy of my first book, no more dark days, (originally entitled no more black days). 

in 1992, no more dark days, a gut-level, heart-gripping, inspirational account of eating disorders, severe depression and other compulsive behaviors which led to a miraculous healing in Messiah Jesus. 

A few weeks later, a nice letter from the Kensington Palace arrived, but it was a ‘form’ letter. I felt Princess Diana hadn’t received the book. 

The Lord gave me a verse, “By long forbearing is a prince persuaded…” Proverbs 25:15 I felt led to persevere, so I sent another copy to Kensington Palace in London. I had done my last year of Architectural Studies in London. I lived right next to Hyde Park where the Palace is where I ran everyday. I lived there in 1983 at the same time she did.

After a month or so after sending the second book, I received a letter with a quote from Princess Diana… “Thank you for the book… I was most touched by your kindness.” I was thrilled. I went on to send her letters, filled with prayers, scriptures and encouragement over the next few years. 

I had always felt close to Princess Diana for a number of reasons. We were born exactly one month apart. She was born July 1, 1961, and I was born June 1, 1961. She seemed to be fairly quiet and introspective growing up and I was, too. She married a man who was much older than her and I did, too. She was married in 1981. I was married in 1985. 

She had many demands placed on her as a young wife, which far surpassed mine, but I had many demands placed on me as a young Pastor’s wife so I could relate to her life in a small way.

I had read that she was struggling with bulimia and I could see in her eyes in photos, she was also struggling with depression. Her husband was in love with another woman and my husband was always putting me second to the women in his church. 

Her divorce was in 1996. Mine was in 1998, when my ex-husband left me for another woman in the church and lost his church. The press were constantly criticizing her. People in my life were constantly criticizing me and falsely accusing me.

Diana loved helping people and children and I do, too, even though not nearly to the extent of her beautiful service to others. 

These similarities caused me to have a deep love and compassion for Diana and pressed me to pray for her on a daily basis, which I did up until her death in 1997.

I had continued to write her letters up until June of 1997. 

My last letter to her included a ‘premonition’ I had received from the Lord of a ‘Shadow of Death’ covering her. I urged her to reconcile with everyone in her life. After I sent the letter, I felt like a crazy person who would never hear from her again. She died in August.

In my Sid Roth interview for no more black days on It’s Supernatural, I spoke of the experience. It meant so much to me that the Lord loved her so much, even though she had an untimely death, God is in control and this gave me peace. I received a vision of Diana in Heaven and know I will see her there one day.

no more dark days is in it’s third printing and continues to reach people with a special touch of God’s love. I hope it will reach you or someone in your life.

december 1982… (my diary)

sometimes,

i feel so scared

and so alone,

wondering why i keep trying

to smile

i feel like crying…

why me?

why do i feel so deep?

why am i different?

or am i?

i lay alone

unable to face reality

cold…

the cut is so deep

from my own knife,

dropping red on the script

as i perform

the most difficult act…

my life.

writing more

each day,

the show must go on.

more make-up please,

i need

a smile

for this scene..

no more dark days

this is my story…

my struggle to live through anorexia and bulimia

with severe depression,

rebelling against every known method of treatment,

which left me feeling alone,

that no one could understand or offer help.

until, i met someone who could offer me both…

not only could He see right through to my heart,

but He touched my life… gave me a brand new start.

this is not a typical nightmare of a girl starving for attention,

but a reality of hope, love and peace.

a way of life through Him who knows your heart…

the best part still remains,

He is available to you, too,

anytime, anywhere,

no appointment necessary.

all He asks for is a broken heart

waiting to be filled with perfect love…

i don’t have the answers, but He does…

my struggle to live through anorexia and bulimia

with severe depression,

rebelling against every known method of treatment,

which left me feeling alone,

that no one could understand or offer help.

until, i met someone who could offer me both…

not only could He see right through to my heart,

but He touched my life… gave me a brand new start.

this is not a typical nightmare of a girl starving for attention,

but a reality of hope, love and peace.

a way of life through Him who knows your heart…

the best part still remains,

He is available to you, too,

anytime, anywhere,

no appointment necessary.

all He asks for is a broken heart

waiting to be filled with perfect love…

i don’t have the answers, but He does…

— Author Lauri Matisse

http://www.evesmemoirs.com/no-more-dark-days.html